Backwards

I've got a long way to go, could use some patience I'm sitting with myself and my addictions I’ve acted out of rage and burned some bridges I’ll never get them back, I’ll never fix it I’d be lying if I said it made no sense Like why am I filled with regret I made my own grave, made my own grave It's one sided I was dancing on the edge Pretended I was innocent But I made my own grave, caused my own pain I been looking it all backwards But not this time I left that part of me somewhere behind I was making my own disasters But not this time I left that part of me far out of mind I’ll get another day To figure it out I’ll turn another page Without any doubt I'll make mistakes I'll make mistakes But they wont make me I've been around for awhile, been called a reject And I've said the same myself when I was depressed Never leaned on any friends for any reason I was scared they wouldn’t stay just like seasons I’d be lying if I said it made no sense Like why am I filled with regret I made my own grave, made my own grave It's one sided I was dancing on the edge Pretended I was innocent But I made my own grave, caused my own pain I been looking it all backwards But not this time I left that part of me somewhere behind I was making my own disasters But not this time I left that part of me far out of mind I’ll get another day To figure it out I’ll turn another page Without any doubt I'll make mistakes I'll make mistakes But they wont make me